I am trans btw

I was wondering about how to mention that I'm trans in this blog, because it's important to my life, and I'll likely write about it here. Decided to just do it in the title of this post. I don't really need to hide something like that on my personal blog.


One thing that really gets my hackles up, speaking of gender, is people mocking the idea of "male loneliness". They frame it as something that only happens to conservative men, or something that everyone experiences so why talk about men, or that it's not real at all, or "they just want to get laid and can't so who gives a shit."


I'm no expert, but there are a lot of problems here, in my opinion. Let me start by saying that I completely understand the urge to heckle men generally. The patriarchy exists, and anyone who has thought about sexist oppression is probably mad, and for good reason, and many people use humor, mocking, and so on to deal with that. I got you. But here's the thing, or a thing: the men who are painfully lonely, who don't have support systems, or who don't have love, are not necessarily the bosses and finance bros and misogynists of the world who are making others miserable. 


Frankly, I would say I'm one of these men who is lonely. I've never been in a romantic relationship despite being in my late twenties. I'm chronically depressed, and I'm trans, and I'm not an owner of capital or even a manager, and I'm about as far from politically conservative as you can get. N of 1, I know, but I don't fit these stereotypes, and I'm not the only guy out there who doesn't. Even among cishet able-bodied men, it's easy to think of examples of people who aren't to blame for their own loneliness: their family is estranged, or they don't have trusted friends, or they don't have a partner because dating is fucking hard these days, or all three. That would be enough to make anyone lonely.


And "they just want to get laid" is really insulting, honestly. It ignores that loneliness often goes much farther than "just" having no romantic partner, and it also minimizes the pain many of us feel when we are single for long periods of time. I'm an extreme case, but I'm not an isolated case. Growing up, I internalized the lesson that you weren't supposed to care about having a partner, because that was weak and girly and codependent and any number of other things, and now I'm careening towards 30 without knowing what it's like to be in mutual love with someone or experience physical intimacy. And it hurts! People who have been dating most of their adult life don't seem to realize how much it just...hurts.


We don't teach men to open up and make genuine connections, we teach them that they have to do everything on their own, that they shouldn't rely on others and if they do it means they are Weak and Bad.


Dare I say it? Patriarchy is actually the problem here.